Terribly Lost

by Alicia Webber
(Lewiston,Maine )

My name is Alicia Webber and I am a 29-year old living in Maine. I have no children and I am single and I live alone in a small one-bedroom apartment. When this all started my mom found out that she had Stage 4 Esophageal Cancer in August of 2014 and since then my life has forever changed. We didn't even know that she had cancer and it was the biggest shock of my life(and hers as well). At the time we were living together and I was in the process of looking for a job and I eventually got a job at Rite Aid part-time. While my mom was sick I was taking care of different odds and ends for her. I was getting her medication, doing the laundry, the groceries and whatnot to help combat the cancer issue. I'm currently in grief counseling at the Dempsey Center and I find it to be helping me with my grief right now even though I still feel very tired and emotionally drained to the point not wanting to get out of bed at points. Most of all I feel angry and upset that one of the best people in my life was taken by such a tragic thing as cancer since it could have been prevented if someone had caught it sooner.