My son forever 21!

by Cathy
(ohio)

The phone call came at 5.38am on Jan. 6th 2010. The ringing on the cell woke me instantly.. "call from Tonya mobile" I grab my cell and said hello only to hear sobbing, uncontrollable sobbing. The words will remain forever inbeded in my mind. "Cathy you need to come out here" My first thought was what happened now and I said Why whats up? and then those words "Ryan is dead Cathy, the cops and squad are on their way. I dont remember much more of that conversation my mind was reeling Ryan my son dead? what is she saying to me. I remember sobbing and my boyfriend waking up hearing me crying and not know what was going on and I kept saying I need to get there please someone take me to my son.

Its been 9 months since I received that call and I still play it over and over in my mind daily. My son Ryan age 21 had passed from a overdose of heroin. I am still very angry at everyone involved in his drug addiction, I had no clue he was even using heroin until that day. He was my baby my youngest and he is now gone. I get angry at God for taking him I am angry at myself for not knowing what was going on in his life. I feel sorry for his best friend that found him that morning. I know theres a long road ahead of me because losing a child no matter what age is horrific to a parent.