Losing my Mom means losing myself...

by Kelly
(Missoula, Mt.)

I lost my Mom to a terminal illness on July 6th of this year! We had a year to say our good byes and I Love you's. She was my best friend, biggest cheerleader, my go to on everything. She knew EVERYTHING about me! I now feel so lost without her. I feel like I don't know who I am without HER by my side! I am physically sick every day! I was with her when she took her last breath and it was so trauatic. I didn't feel peaceful about it! I have to be strong for my Dad who also has a terminal disease but find my strength lacking! He is also lost without his wife of 53 years! I can't stop his hurting and it kills me! I need someone to hold me and tell me it will be ok like my Mom always did. I just don't know how to go on. I feel like I am living with my nerve endings on the outside of my body. It is more difficult each day.

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May 30, 2017
 I Lost My Mother!
by: Weny

I know exactly how you feel. I lost my mother almost 19 months ago.She died in her sleep.She too was my one and only best friend.I know I will never be able to replace the friendship I had with her with anyone else.The first year I was angry that she had left me.Now into the second year,I miss her terribly.I am lost without her.Like there is a big gap in my life.I know I am not done grieving.I think of her always.Cry at my memories of the things her and I did together. They are not happy memories.My dad and her were married 52 years.He now is seeing someone else.On the ladies behalf.She came up to me and asked for his number.She had lost her husband 12 years ago and she was lonely.She called him that night and they have been together almost every day since.I do not want to be selfish.But I don`t think he`s done grieving himself.Everything seems to be moving so fast.They sit close on my couch together and he rubs her back just like he did with mt mom.i do understand my mom is gone and it is time to move on.but it is very difficult for me.My dad said to me I am 71 yrs. old and life is too short to be unhappy.This is true!
Jan 19, 2015
 My deepest sorrow......
by: Anonymous

I am sorry for your loss. PLease know, I do know somewhat how you feel. I lost my dad over 3 years ago, and I BECAME like a zombie, full of sadness,
despair, very unresponsive to the world, loss of sleep and appetite. My body became weak with sadness.
I know loss is so hard, it's not fair at all. I am better now, but, I miss my dad so much. The deep pain is gone, but not the love I feel for him. Please know, it does get better. We will always miss them.
Oct 21, 2013
 Feeling The Same.......
by: Anonymous

I lost my dad 2 years ago to cancer. I feel very much like you do. I lost my soul the day my dad passed. I couldn't eat anymore, drink liquids, sleep, or even think straight. My pain was heart wrenching. I do know how you feel. But, I must tell you, it gets better. I didn't think so, but, it somehow gets a little easier. YOu must believe that you will see your mom again, and that her soul does still love you. She knows how you feel. And, I certainly do too. Have faith, take care.
Brenda
Aug 05, 2013
 Two parents
by: Anonymous

I also lost a parent, my dad..who was my best friend in the family. And my mother, who is devastated from the loss, also has a terminal illness. It can seem like too much at times, I know. I try to take it one day at a time. I get support from friends. I try to remember, that I cant control her illness, like I couldn't control his. It is not in my hands. The urge to somehow "resolve" the cancer has been my biggest struggle. We can only be there to support.

Aug 02, 2013
 your mom will not leave you
by: Anonymous

It will be OkK. Though saying it will get easier is said often I can not say I truely believe it. I wish I could I miss my Dad every day and its been 2.5 years. You will always miss your Mom. Losing parents literally and figuratively will always hurt. But I believe they are still with you in spirit Just believe. Be strong. Your Mom will always be with you and your Dad. She will meet him when it is time like I know my Dad will meet my Mom... she is in a NH and that in a sense is a figurative death.
So know even though we cannot see them they want us happy and are praying for us. Look for signs. They do happen. Read books like They are our Heaven by Allison Dubois and Beyond knowing by Janet Amatuzio. They helped me.
I pray for you I hope you will pray for me
Mary . Stanley Zlotkowdki's Mary
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