'I miss you' doesn't even begin to explain how I feel right now

by Lerato Maribe
(Johannesburg (South Africa))

My precious little Mbali. It's been 3 months but I still feel like you passed away yesterday. I cannot understand or make sense of why you had to leave us. It's the holiday season now, and the thought of going through them without you just kills me inside. Rea misses you so much, especially at bath time. I have come to realise your bath time together was her most special time cause she got to have you all to herself.

Even if God had made it possible for us to know how short your time with us was, I don't think I would have been prepared to say good-bye to you. When you passed, a part of my heart died too, and it will never be brought to life again. I know you are at a better place, with no pain and hundreds of medication being pumped into your tiny body. Maybe I'm being selfish by not accepting you are gone, especially when I look back at how you suffered, but you were my little girl. I had so many dreams and aspirations about your future.

I don't want to keep you from your Angelic duties up in heaven by crying everyday, but my heart is still aching and my sadness just isn't going away. I am sorry for all the times I was hard on you my baby, I did it out of love. You will always be my little Angel, my Butternut, Mommy and Daddy's girl, Rea's little sister.

Daddy, Rea and I will always love you and we will never ever forget you.